Updated: Aug 16, 2020
It’s quite incredible that we are all only one moment away from our lives being altered forever. Although most of us don’t live thinking about it this way. Receiving a cancer diagnosis I felt my entire world halt to a stop. The life I had been living with my husband and 2 boys came crashing down around me. I have never felt the weight of something so heavy on my mind, body and soul as I did exactly 1 year ago today. Writing this I still get a lump in my throat remembering, the fear and all the tears. There was little choice or control over what was going to happen in the next several months.
1 life altering phone call Shaved my hair
1 wig 8 chemo treatments 1 allergic reaction 8 white blood cell booster injections 2 Picc Lines 21 hydration infusions 50 plus blood draws 3 MRIs 1 bone scan 1 cat scan 1 sentinel node injection A bilateral mastectomy surgery 11 lymph nodes removed Reconstruction surgery
4 radiation tattoos 25 rounds of radiation
1 scope heart ultrasound
1 Salpingo ooperectomy surgery
1 body scan for skin cancer
1 ER visit
2 nights in hospital
Looking back its an unbelievable amount of time, no matter how I choose to count it. I recently read a post that inspired me to take a look at this past year through the lens of what I have been taught by cancer.
Cancer taught me that my bravery wasn't treatment, radiation, or surgery. It was overcoming my own fears and being there for my children when they needed me. For getting in my bathing suit with my extra chemo weight and wearing my wig down a water slide. Making memories and living in the moment when my mind tried to keep me from the world.
I’ve learned that tough situations can be hard on a marriage, and that they can also make a marriage stronger then ever. I am forever thankful for the connection and support my husband has been for me and our kids.
I’ve learned that the outdoors no matter what your mood, will always improve it.
Cancer has taught me that healing comes in many forms, (including 2 new kittens) it doesn’t automatically happen after treatment ends and it comes and goes. It’s a journey and different for everyone. No one knows another persons internal battles. Be kind always.
Cancer won't define me.